How To Find Someone Who Does Not Want To Be Found (aka I think I have been catfished)

No, I dont think I have been catfished because I have been catfished.

 How do you get over someone you haven't known? How do you forget someone who probably dont or have never known you?

Dear Nev and Max.. (just kidding) 

but really, how? I know its been years but I guess this is how it felt like for everyone who has been duped or has fallen in love with someone they just met online or text then they're gone without any closure. I know it's weird. I have learned a lot from that experience especially to not be too trustworthy and making firm decisions in life and to just walk away from toxic friends. Yeah, I learned the hard way a bit too late.

So anyways, I guess this is my way of saying I want to know you. I dont know what you have heard about me or if you even know me or still remember me, which maybe your answer to everything is NO. (sigh)

Dear Mr. Lee (or is that really your name?),

I met you from a common friend back in 2010 or something. We never met personally back in the days of your stay here in the Philippines. I heard you were doing some religious stuff. We met through text (SMS). You were funny and caring but I heard you are not allowed to use your phone a lot and you got in so much trouble because of it. I also heard about the difficulties you had to endure during your stay here and at a certain point, you left the house where you were staying. I met SAMONIM, the old lady who owns the house where you were supposed to be staying. I also met two of your friends but in both instances I was told to not mention a thing about you and how we were communicating. 

Christmas 2010, she gave me a DVD containing a copy of how your life story was presented in a play. I have seen it maybe twice. she told me, it was for me, so I could get to know you more. I also remember sending you a gift for Christmas. I hope you received it. :)

I have never heard your voice.

I know you just by a few pictures on social media.

All I can remember is that, the last time we exchanged messages, we had an argument, she learned about it because you apparently said it to her. I have never heard from you again.

A few days after, she said you and her kissed and......

I cried. It broke my heart.

I ended my friendship with her. 

For some reason after that, I figured maybe you were just a figment of someone's imagination- to make me fall in love because I DID or maybe I was in love with the thought of you and maybe I still am.

sighhhhhh.....

Dear Mr. Lee (or something), I know you might think I am crazy. I dont forget and I barely forget people who have been part of my life. Its been years, I know. YEARS. 


P.S. I still have the DVD.